'What belongs at work stays at work'..... and now i have my days off recouping!yehhhh Today I am sitting in pyjama's not feeling particularly physically well but feeling o.k. with all that life is . I can go slow and although this aternoon is full of all sorts of medical things now i have the days off i can cope with this and organise myself to get by and also have some space to create art and journal to process life too...
"The good life is a process, not a state of being.It is a direction not a destination "- Carl Rogers
So today on my mind is 'Onwards and Upwards' in the direction of my good life (our good lives)....It is a process and direction that goes slow enough for me to be still with the moment perhaps to savour and enjoy or perhaps to learn a lesson from or increase my awareness of old patterns that need to change..... We are all deserving of the 'good life'.
Friday, 18 November 2011
Saturday, 5 November 2011
LIFE IS A VERB - chapter 1 inhabiting my story
Time only seems to matter when it is running out - Peter Strup
This delightful book by Patti Digh and the journey facilitated by the Wild Precious community is inspiring me to create some art journal pages about my everyday life...what better way to hold onto the joy of life in those dark short days of winter! How marvellous to feel it is ok to be a lover of 'story telling' i've albums full of my son and creating albums to hold precious memories for ohers brings me such joy but what about MY STORY i mean my real everyday story...Time can go by so quickly and when living each day as if it where your last, I find i am more able to live it with love and joy! as my mind is only focusing on what is real.... i would choose to live out my last day with remembering to breathe, i mean really breath to take a break when i need one,(my health issues have really made me have to do that and i am truly grateful for the reminder to go slowly and be gentle with myself), to observe and savour every playful exchange i see, let every hostile communication simply roll over my head,be able to speak out be authentic and true to me, enjoy the noise and tones of boyish banter in my house, savour each hug and cuddle, fill up on the feel good of spending time with my mum, observing every lovely facial expression, every little fouble and nuance that makes my friends and relatives the individuals that they are .......oooh i can feel myself living life with more intention already...I've started a first page in my Winter Art Journal for this journey called 'the joy in an urban life' will post a photo later...the background is still drying as it's made up of receipts, bits of letterheads,bits of bills...even have a photo from a CCTV clip me inadvertently sitting in the bus lane when i took a wrong turn in the midst of my brain fog!! and the penalty that came with it.... all a part of my everday life! and i plan to draw a beautiful flower emerging and weavng its way through the medley of everday stuff..cos that's how it is when i'm feeling the joy in my urban life!
here it is udated 18/11/11
I'm writing in my book 'Life is a Verb' and plan to 'alter' it as I think the author Patti Digh would encourges us to do whatever we wanted with the book to make it ours and part of our stroy...i love writing in books! it feels a little naughty..after all books are lovely thing and if it were a someone elses that wouldn't be allowed!but it's mine...and i'd been writing in pencil in the extra wide margins and had filled them with my reflections ..now i'm gonna express a little more in a creative sense and stamp on the pages and embellish and alter them to represent what Patti's words and those gorgeous pages stir up in me ... Thankyou xxxxx
This delightful book by Patti Digh and the journey facilitated by the Wild Precious community is inspiring me to create some art journal pages about my everyday life...what better way to hold onto the joy of life in those dark short days of winter! How marvellous to feel it is ok to be a lover of 'story telling' i've albums full of my son and creating albums to hold precious memories for ohers brings me such joy but what about MY STORY i mean my real everyday story...Time can go by so quickly and when living each day as if it where your last, I find i am more able to live it with love and joy! as my mind is only focusing on what is real.... i would choose to live out my last day with remembering to breathe, i mean really breath to take a break when i need one,(my health issues have really made me have to do that and i am truly grateful for the reminder to go slowly and be gentle with myself), to observe and savour every playful exchange i see, let every hostile communication simply roll over my head,be able to speak out be authentic and true to me, enjoy the noise and tones of boyish banter in my house, savour each hug and cuddle, fill up on the feel good of spending time with my mum, observing every lovely facial expression, every little fouble and nuance that makes my friends and relatives the individuals that they are .......oooh i can feel myself living life with more intention already...I've started a first page in my Winter Art Journal for this journey called 'the joy in an urban life' will post a photo later...the background is still drying as it's made up of receipts, bits of letterheads,bits of bills...even have a photo from a CCTV clip me inadvertently sitting in the bus lane when i took a wrong turn in the midst of my brain fog!! and the penalty that came with it.... all a part of my everday life! and i plan to draw a beautiful flower emerging and weavng its way through the medley of everday stuff..cos that's how it is when i'm feeling the joy in my urban life!
here it is udated 18/11/11
I'm writing in my book 'Life is a Verb' and plan to 'alter' it as I think the author Patti Digh would encourges us to do whatever we wanted with the book to make it ours and part of our stroy...i love writing in books! it feels a little naughty..after all books are lovely thing and if it were a someone elses that wouldn't be allowed!but it's mine...and i'd been writing in pencil in the extra wide margins and had filled them with my reflections ..now i'm gonna express a little more in a creative sense and stamp on the pages and embellish and alter them to represent what Patti's words and those gorgeous pages stir up in me ... Thankyou xxxxx
Saturday, 29 October 2011
Chillaxing...
So here we are i now have a break of 3 days which i sooo need.I'm hoping to have a sneaky artists date at my favourite craft store and visit a friend today.Mel is playing football and Chel bless him is away in Zambia with family as dear dear Ismail passed on at the beginning of the week.I would love to post a tribute to beautiful strong and loving Ismail, my mother in law... i need to sit with the sadness about her death and the gratitude to her.. and maybe paint and explore some more around expressing how grateful i am to her and how much i see of her in my beloved chel.So i wish to stay as emotionally still as possible and give my adrenals a rest from the ups and downs that the bodily stresses and strains my depleted thyroxine levels gives them.My treatment plan of acupuncture(beginning of week) , yoga class (mid week), reflex (end of week) and array of nutritional supplements n caffeine free days seems to be paying off...my emotinal state is better but i do feel soo tired and sleeping is still an issue even without Chella's snoring bless him!I'm going to try to adress it as i need to feel rested over the next few days as i've a full 4 days at work to survive next week and it is as it always is!
Thought........
Gee Whizzz i got through the week but boy did i need the reduced hours.I spent my half day in bed and arted a little on my latest pages that i kinda love a lot at the moment (and Effy at Wild Precious featured my pag too which meant the world someone else liked them too!).Most of my journalling has been just pouring out where i am at into my little concertina bound album ...which i've loved doing but it has been more about processing stuff and affirming my next steps...arting them out makes them quite real for me if they sit inside then they kinda stay there and the feeling of stuckness accumulates! I perused Adolie Day's beautiful illustrations and felt inspired to start to draw and then paint and my 'trio of thought' evolved..the pattern of 3 comes up quite a bit and i feel a real satisfaction and balance acknowledging three perspectives to 'things' i can't really explain it but i'll explore it's significance for me over time i'm sure(perhaps it's child, adolescent and adult, or a sort of 'innocence/wonder', soul and spirit).So i've still to complete my pages and I suspect there are no words to go on these pages..this journal is particularly word free there's only one page with words on so far!some ponderings are scribbled on the page but they don't seem to need words they feel expressive in there own right ...and i've 'My Life Sparkles and is Magic concertina album' full of ramblings behind the flaps on each page.... perhaps it all in there!
Thursday, 27 October 2011
just chillin'
I have chilled all week and am a little tired but enjoying Ed Sheeran's new track...soo want his album it is going on my christmas list ! ....
Sunday, 23 October 2011
Preparing for the onslaught!
O.K after a week of vitamins and complemetary therapies i'm trying to address work with revisiting my psychological awareness!...i've always felt i am a pretty good judge of myself and pretty self aware...although this does not make things any easier for me when surrounded by everchanging chaos, conflict and deadlines..or lessen the stress in times of poor health However, i've been scooting around the personality and group dynamics quizzes and there's nothing new here i dooo know myself ...
'Your preferred leadership style is probably as a participative leader. Participative leaders achieve through people, through team work, and through collective involvement in the task. Participative leadership involves building collective ownership and commitment within the group. Participative leaders make people feel valued as an integral part of the team so that everyone achieves the goals through relationships and cooperative teamwork.'
..yep that is me...
My challenge .....
One of the challenges of leadership is finding the right balance between meeting your own preference needs and the needs of the situation. Too much emphasis on the former can lead to poor performance. Too much emphasis on the latter can lead to stress and executive burnout.....well i am pretty sure i fall into the later category hello there stress and burn out!...you are not friends just aquaintances that keep bobbing up for a feast!
Career Score
Nursing 76%
Training 75%
Teaching 70%
Yes I do all these things in my present role..... and am a nurse!
so this quizz made me an ENFJ wheras answering the next one around personality made me an INFJ... a moderately expressed introvert
moderately expressed intuitive personality
moderately expressed feeling personality
moderately expressed judging personality............. my carreer advice focuses around following a career path in counselling ...... so i could probably move closer toward this field in my career but my existing challenge is so how do I make it through work when bombarded by the energies and behaviours of stressed extroverts....a little but unsympathetic voice says YOU JUST HAVE TO MANAGE IT ! So manage it i will..... with the support of the universe and some practical strategies for self care.
'Your preferred leadership style is probably as a participative leader. Participative leaders achieve through people, through team work, and through collective involvement in the task. Participative leadership involves building collective ownership and commitment within the group. Participative leaders make people feel valued as an integral part of the team so that everyone achieves the goals through relationships and cooperative teamwork.'
..yep that is me...
My challenge .....
One of the challenges of leadership is finding the right balance between meeting your own preference needs and the needs of the situation. Too much emphasis on the former can lead to poor performance. Too much emphasis on the latter can lead to stress and executive burnout.....well i am pretty sure i fall into the later category hello there stress and burn out!...you are not friends just aquaintances that keep bobbing up for a feast!
Career Score
Nursing 76%
Training 75%
Teaching 70%
Yes I do all these things in my present role..... and am a nurse!
so this quizz made me an ENFJ wheras answering the next one around personality made me an INFJ... a moderately expressed introvert
moderately expressed intuitive personality
moderately expressed feeling personality
moderately expressed judging personality............. my carreer advice focuses around following a career path in counselling ...... so i could probably move closer toward this field in my career but my existing challenge is so how do I make it through work when bombarded by the energies and behaviours of stressed extroverts....a little but unsympathetic voice says YOU JUST HAVE TO MANAGE IT ! So manage it i will..... with the support of the universe and some practical strategies for self care.
Tuesday, 18 October 2011
zoning out with my son!
o.k have given up on making tea, on thinking and trying to plan ...zoning out while Mel flicks through all the various music channels is as good as it gets today...liked these two tunes.x
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