Saturday, 27 May 2017

Attending n reflecting on 'humanbeingness'

A lot is happening around us all ....'humanbeingness' in transition gosh its a surreal world at the moment...and will be for a long time I what to do with oneself when potentially feeling sadenned and helpless about the state of the world? The death of children all iver tge world the brainwashing and marginalising if very vulnerable human beings and some of the most powerful blinkered politicians running infecting the worlds wound even more....Focus on the positive? the helpers the artists, musicians and some politicians do get that we cannot put up walls and become silos!  so much sense and love can come through their dialogue...whilst not diregarding the negative ...meditate and let fear and any strong emotions pass ...avoid overanalysing and overidentifying with an awareness of how polarising this can be .... but empathise yes really think what it might be like for all not just the groups and communities we see ourselves as being a part if...meditate and breathe send love out into the world being mindful that loving and healing oneself might be all one can do  sometimes and if we stand together in love perhaps we can start to heal this gaping wound we have in our world in 'humanbeingness' eventually.

Saturday, 8 April 2017

Monday, 27 March 2017

Mothers day

Mothers mindfull that  everyday id like to be mindful of 'mother' liness and feel the connection to the mother in the wider universe the earth and myself and others...its more than simply one day and a superficial way of celebrating although dont get me wrong thats gooood toooo ... sooo this year.. this weekend has been a few days of the whole cycle of mother and creativity ive loved all if it and today is my 'nest day'....where i sit in one if my restorative spaces nurture myself with tea meditation and some journalling and drawing .....after a great 2 days of full on company... beautiful company on a womens quest retreat day, a Jack Savoretti concert and meal with my gorgeous boys....and to.orrow i will be honouring my own mother and spending time being with her....Now im listening to Haseya in my pyjamas burning some Nag champs feeling 'home' this is the amazingness of ageing and evolving into the croan i adore being over 50 years old it is the coming of wiseness and a peaceful inner world Ive only ever dreamt of as being possible .....Happy Mothers Day Universe.... gratitude overflows in this weee soul xxx

Friday, 24 February 2017

Heaven on earth

Gosh just settling nicely after all that has passed.Sharons funeral...poorly spells, confused psyche,observing the crazy world.....'beam me up Scotty' .... listening to some lovely music this morning managed a short morning ritual of gentle spine warming kundalini interspersed with meditative moments and some warrior my fleecy PJ'S with the patio doors open the cold inter air on my face and yes the sun shining.....thankyou univerze this is a slice of heaven on earth I want to tuck away into the memory box in my mind to return to when discombobulated...grateful for this precious life xxxc

Sunday, 15 January 2017

4.30 a.m. calls

A few hot flashes tonight and an increased awareness of a root issue that I want to art out in my shadow journal.I know my hardwiring comes from my childhood of learning I had to be responsible from a very young age and its cool... I get it.. but ive a real desire to art in an onion layered layout in respect of how some of my major life experiences have created the way I 'feel' things and the 'patterns of thought' and 'behaviour' they give rise tooo... sooo this weekend I'm sat with fear in the main....fear around the family history of suicide and the addictive personality traits of a lot of us females in the family, some anxiety rushes through me when I think of mum and my perception of her 'withdrawal from whats happening' around my cousins death.I revisit the well understood feelings and self doubt that I should've in some way done more for all those I've lost including some of my patients and my babies. . but it's tempered with a knowing that I couldn't and the guilt does not get in the way of my loving myself the individuals I've lost and wanting to honour them.Im also really grateful for sharing yoga with Julia (especially ....thankyou sweetie) and a new group of people at the course I'm going to and if course the mutual love shared with my Chel....however here I am at 4.30 a.m. with my cat sat on my meditation cushion with a hot cacoa n almond hey its already sounding like another slice of heaven  .... thankyou for my life and my ever evolving human journey...peri menapause is proving to be a rather enlightening experience.. time to draw n journal a little xxx

Monday, 9 January 2017

My prayer for you

A mothers prayer for all us girls in my family but especially for my cousin Sharon who will soon join her mum and dad in peace ....... she knows she's loved and she can let go of all that held her body and mind in pain in this earthly life ...she has a gentle fun loving soul who only wanted love like all of do and my childhood memories of her as an innocent wee girl fill me with sadness that her life wasn't different, she was a pretty little orchid, but I can accept this sadness and replace it with love...and I love her now and for eternity. "