Tuesday, 31 May 2011

Monday, 30 May 2011

Art journaling with Tam

I do not now why i haven't found this before.....wow some instruction from Tam !
A new journal for this one....

Lovely Times

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I sooo love to wishcast.............I wish to have holiday time away from everything at least twice a year....that's what i wish for my health.Breaking that down to what was great about my recent holiday and sooo good for my health is the followong

Feeling sunshine in my face and on my back.
Waking when i feel i want to and arting to start my day.
Doing Yoga each day.
Walking everywhere.
Just sutting and letting time pass looking out to see or at people passing by.
Spending quality time wit my Chel

Sunday, 29 May 2011

Wild Precious Elements of Art Journalling

Pictured above is my very first Wild Precious Art journal. I made it myself for my work on Wild Precious.I prepared the pages with white gesso and neo colour watercolour crayons it's not full yet but is getting there...i've some nice pages coming up inspired by the existing groups in the Wild Precious Studio.Since joining Wild Precious Studio my creative energy has shifted and I find myself tapping into a deeper part of my creative self that i was perhaps a little wary of..it has been a truly liberating part of my creative journey so far.I hope to be participating in EFFY'S Elements of Art Journalling Course.I will be on board for July with this new journey in Art Journalling supported and facilitated by Effy.The studio and community at Wild Precious is a safe and nurturing envirnoment to practice authenticity in your art...i will be joining the course thankyou Effy x

Evolving.......beyond the past

Oh wow i've had such a great week off ..i've arted, chillaxed and loved and just had a fantastic time...

However, i also spent time reflecting on an experience, which has taken around a week to process and recover from ....On our outbound flight we sat behind 'a couple' they seemed just an ordinary couple and were just ordinary ...as our 4 hour journey progressed things deteriorated between the couple.. alcohol was involved but i would hasten a guess that their behaviour was probably quite normal for them...(i'm just acknowledging that what happenned is a 'real' and a part of everyday life for some folks ..for lots of folks but not minimising it)...we were sat very close and during the descent of plane their argument became quite physical...and even more verbally aggressive..he punched her leg a couple of times and grabbed her nose and started to shout about her being too drunk ... i missed a lot of what was actually being said as i plugged myself into my music player to cope as we were up in the sky and fastened into our seats for the descent... it was distressing cos ordinarily i probably would have handled it in 'some way' but i felt powerless...i could see her face she looked 'confused' almost 'little girl like' in her reaction to his hurting her... seeing and perceiving what was going on from this 'little girl perspective' was really distressing for me as i revisited once again a gush of emotions including the fear and frustration i felt as a child and early teen... and memories came back to me from my past.. I'm not going to go into too much detail as i was still 'present' as the '46 year old woman' and 'airline customer '...O.k what i wanted to do was press the call button but the air hostesses but my inner child was in 'protection mode' and the air hostesses had been passing by for the last part of the flight oblivious and didn't seem to see the situation build up! We had to sit through it! it felt really wrong ...only a few other passengers were expressing their alarm all dealing with it differently some likening the continued barage of abuse to something off the Jeremy Kyle show ......it didn't feel right i felt quite sick to my stomach.. from my fear came a degree of 'useful and measured anger' and i did verbally question airline policy and report it to the 'unassuming' air hostesses as we stepped off the plane after the couple. I had to do the same again on the inbound journey in a proactive way and a non judgmental way 'cos again they seemed a nice enough couple..Chel supported my needing to be proactive and he agreed it needed addressing as i think he could see me going into anxiety melt down when I saw them infront of us for the return journey! I deal with that sort of stuff in my work but it was different i didn't have any power as a 'person' as i was not in a 'professional role'. I did all i could hve done, it doesn't feellike enough but i'd waited after the outbound journey until i saw the woman away from the man and i tried to talk a little and encourage her to stay safe ...but i knew it was all a part of her life and almost probably for my benefit i did that ... It was my feelings and my actions i needed to reflect upon throughout the week .... these varied from my wanting to report it to the police to complaining to the airline ..just doing nothing was only ever a fleeting childlike thought considered for a moment and I knew would involve me having to contain my profound anxiety (which i do not do well as a maturer woman.... why is that!)...passing on the responsibility is not my thing..accepting the responsibility for everything is! I want to evolve enough to find the middle ground .....am i making more of this that i need to? probably but hey life is more beautiful when the journey is shared...............
Thankyou universe for all of life's experiences...but please can i not have that one again for a while.....

Thursday, 19 May 2011

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Mary Oliver » Mary Oliver reads Mornings at Blackwater

A little wishcasting


I am wishcasting .......late as usual but it is such an important pat of my week i missed it sooooo much when i didn't do it.. OOOh dreams I am dreaming of enjoying 'the bliss in life'......arting is a really important part of my bliss and soo is being close to those i love and those who love me...I am dreaming of taking the time to breathe and enjoy moments of bliss.These are the dreams i am wishing for ........

“Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.”Marcel Proust

Tuesday, 17 May 2011

The eyes are the window to my soul

just needed to share my drawing /painting as it built up over a few days ...loved creating this it's an 8 x8 sized piece and i really like it ........

Thursday, 12 May 2011

Wishcasting ......


Oh involved in some dynamics today in the midst of a stressfull week..i just want to make a stand and be myself...not to be manipulated by powerful behaviour in others to have to be a victim a persecutor or a rescuer!... but to be true to myself express myself authentically and have some energy to enjoy my life .Thought I could possibly loose the plot this week until my hubby confronted me with the fact that i was being really negative... i was expressing my stress at home with my family not in the workplace which is where it all really stems from! it is crackers at work not enough manpower to deliver the service we are commissioned to deliver and very little power to do anything about it! Just a holiday to look forward to....thankyou for allowing me to see the truth....

Lucy i visited you blogspot and was really taken with this great video thankyouuuuu so much for posting it..............

Vlog inspiration

OOOh i love Effy and Tam's vlogging............and all those great guys brave enough to join in...there's all sorts of reasons why it isn't for me but i admire you guys lots and watch you and feel inspired by and insightful alongside empathising and enjoying your daily happennings.........
Tam's singin is soooooo lovely and i'm in love with this song........The two videos kinda reflect 'where it can be at' only i know what i mean here....

Sunday, 1 May 2011

Dante's Prayer

When the dark wood fell before me.
And all the paths were overgrown
When the priests of pride say there is no other way
I tilled the sorrows of stone.
I did not believe because I could not see
Though you came to me in the night
When the dawn seemed forever lost
You showed me your love in the light of the stars.
Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me.
Then the mountain rose before me
By the deep well of desire
From the fountain of forgiveness
Beyond the ice and the fire.
Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me.
Though we share this humble path, alone
How fragile is the heart
Oh give these clay feet wings to fly
To touch the face of the stars.
Breathe life into this feeble heart
Lift this mortal veil of fear
Take these crumbled hopes, etched with tears
We'll rise above these earthly cares.
Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me
Please remember me

A Right Royal Bank holiday

Well i am sooo enjoying the beautiful weather, the time to chill and thankyou to the royal couple for making Friday a day off...i glimpsed at the wedding and emersed myself in lovely things.I am getting back on track with TAW..yeehh