Monday, 30 December 2013
Sunday, 22 December 2013
...gosh have drafted posts but not actually posted for a while.....lots of life to live and am soooo looking forward to some fresh air yoga n grounding over the next couple of weeks....Celebrating Winter Solstice and reflecting on simple things that bring me joy.....my day off being the greatest of these ....
Monday, 11 November 2013
Tuesday, 29 October 2013
gosh havent arted for a couple of weeks.....busy preparing two albums for november december time n having a wee crafty get together with pals this saturday...lots of pretty paperbag albums made for etsy.....but my soul is aching for a little simple art journalling..yep need some slow flow time away from the overworked hustle bustle of daily working life ...balance and tlc 'needed' as my health is dipping again but spirits still strong! so in between some worrying about the sinister grip the most recent virus seems to have and have triggered in my sensitive wee body life is pretty sweet...and so the albums created i will post a photo later...just some finishing touches to add.
Friday, 25 October 2013
...I was sooo privileged to get the opportunity to travel to Italy.... it has been somewhere Chel has wanted to start to explore for a few years now. We spent a few days in Rome... and then a few days on the hillsides of Amalfi ...a little adventure for us .....thankyou Chel my lovely it was fab .
Sunday, 13 October 2013
I have had the most amazing two months.....words can not express the gratitude, positivity,balance and resilience generated....as the season turns I am reminded to 'slow down' continue to breathe deeply in order that my connection to that loving wave continues.. I am surfing ! I am soaking up and feeling so grateful for the joy and serendipitous happennings coming my way courtesy of
the universe....gratitude is over flowing x
Tuesday, 24 September 2013
I often come to two images in my journalling ....the resonance I have with these images can be explained as a sort of lovely balance of loving awakeness and regenerative awareness......its hard to explain but i find these images with eyes open and eyes closed a yummy yet simple symbol of where my mindfulness can be at.... i difnt get very far with ideas this day ...but inspiration came later from some friends...
Wednesday, 4 September 2013
This is such a special week....and excitement is pulsing through my veins....its a week of celebration, I'll see mum tomorrow..chels hot the day off friday...I am helping at a yoga tetreat on Saturday and seeing good friends Sunday.....today i do not have any plan other than to play lots of music and do a tidy up dance in my craft room! maybe i will get to see a friend whom I missed ...and maybe i will hang those photos n get a new print in the frame in the front room.....I will however write in my big lifetime journal that ive kept for years and always update around the time of my birthday ....thankyou for all the blessings i get to reflect and celebrate this week.....my life, my health,my loved ones and friendships, and the love and support from the universe xxxx
Tuesday, 3 September 2013
Have had a fab weekend with my buddy Tracy.....we shared prrcious slow flow time chatting n laughing, with her fab free spirited imaginative boyz! (they are such good company tooo) and of course a thrill of a trike ride courtesy of Steve....I am blessed n love you guyz
Tuesday, 27 August 2013
An interesting few pages which evolved and lead to some deeper insights over a few days....art journalling is sooo good at allowing that to happen for me...yes its therapeutic but its also evolutionary....i particularly loved creating the sunflower spread...why because it took me back to my childhood rolling bits of tissue for the inside of the sunflower...and ive been fascinated with my sunflowers growing outside..only today i ran my fingers over the drying centres releasing the pods to see the beautiful seeds underneath....theres a Rumi quote i need to find and add about love and the soul blossoming am sure i have it on pinintrest and i plan to add it to that spread. I may find myself adding more to my other spreads as i continue to focus on thoughts coming from the source of a loving connected wave and having increased awareness of when theres more particle n potential stress response creeping in with those lizard voices! thankyou Gill Edwards x
Monday, 26 August 2013
I am so grateful .......not everyone has had the opportunity to have a Sheila (my wise mermaid)in there lives.She is retiring and I have thought of her soo much over the last few days she inspires me in a powerful way...she always has.... i am pondering on my plans to early retire maybe re train a little so I might still work in a healing field.... but differently..
very differently.I am looking at my last few art journal pages and after bathing myself in Gill Edwards work I see them in a different way....I hope to post them later and explain a little although words cant quite describe the revelations.......i am sending so much gratitude, love and light to my wise mermaid ......
Saturday, 24 August 2013
......blogging when i can now rather than daily....i pondered over how blissful today felt.Chel had to work and we met for tea and sandwiches in the vintage tea shop in 'Handpicked' it was soooo lovely china old style tea cups and saucers quirky menu on an old record ... wave of contentment and good spirit with my Chel we laughed and walked through town.. sauntered through the refreshing summer drizzle and bought groceries and drinks ..
...simply lovely x
Friday, 23 August 2013
yay...sea faring done.....day off pending.
My day off here..an early start lots of tidying..not usually what i do but was nice to! arted and cooked and took delivery of the fridge freezer yay cooler's on...Enjoyed taxi ing Mel around and my bliss point of the day at Kula for some fab flow Yoga...baked chai biscuits for the first time (practice for a couple of weeks time) and feel soooo grateful for this day...A wonderful revelation from Gill Edwards ...thinking thoughts that flow like a "loving connected wave"
Tuesday, 20 August 2013
The day came to a calm and positive close when I anchored in for time with Kula....such nurturing energy and such a privilege to be a part of that...... The day at sea was peculiar .....but a balance of meeting needs.... my boat took on water and needed some bailing out , there was news of more crew members moving on and a wave of being back to where we were a year or so ago....choosing to let go of fear and anxiety today.....a kind of jolly sailor delerium.... settling into reading more of Beloved Gill Edwards work....Conscious Medicine ....and sweet sleep will follow ....tomorrow is windy (previously wicked weds) wednesday ...
Monday, 19 August 2013
My day 16 of the weekend was amazing just the right amount of get up n go with a scrumptious measure of nurture and joy....Today I returned to sea feeling well ....aside perhaps some expected apprehension regarding how the day might go.... after being off poorly for a couple of days last week.I pulled in as much as I could of my nets full of debris that no other crew member could touch because their nets were too full....Choppy waters and a bit of piracy were navigated and I had a window of calm sea and I pulled into a little cove of beauty and got to bathe and soak in its magic with a beautiful wise mermaid.....thankyou wise mermaid you've guided me through trecherous waters over the years ....she gave me a beautiful amethyst crystal to take with me on my travels and absorb some of the rough so as I can see the smooth...a day where I felt the love xxxxx
Saturday, 17 August 2013
Thursday, 15 August 2013
Monday, 12 August 2013
Thursday, 8 August 2013
Wednesday, 7 August 2013
In sea fearing terms.... I was 'part' of the crew sat around the captains table were alliances and agendas are visible and my responsibility is to stand my ground only when I 'really' need to and otherwise simply listen to the healthy and lively debate. I didn't have to walk the plank today although I am suspicious that a potential dunking at sometime may be on the cards .....however I have a good Life Jacket and although might have to take on water for while ...won't drown.So navigating the 'next leg' on choppy waters and time is of the essence as usual...but made it home eventually to my little lighthouse of love..
Tuesday, 6 August 2013
I couldnt go into detail about the day because it is always so diverse in its experiences and I feel so privelidged to have the encounters i have that i prefer to perceive it in seafaring terms to keep that smile on my face... hey so today I sailed in changeable winds manning my own rudder to make it through choppy and calm waters in my wee boat... but my vessel stayed afloat and no sos whistle was required... just time to listen to the other boat crew before stepping into my dinghy for the day.... ahoy there protective bubble intact...sanity preserved thankyou x
Monday, 5 August 2013
Tomorrow I return to work and I am creating a bubble to protect myself from the stuff that is toxic to me.....this is the beginning of my journal page that really has me focusing on creating my protective intention for this next week. The universe will support me........
Saturday, 3 August 2013
Today was a buzy ole day...we built up a faulty bicycle....were escorted by security to return it, were offered goodwill by passers by,trouble shooted with a few shop attendants, built up a new bicycle and washed and brushed up to walk around our city centre...the holiday vibe was present throughout......what fun we had meandering round......i am soooo enjoying the last days of my break.
Friday, 2 August 2013
Thursday, 1 August 2013
Saturday, 27 July 2013
I am so elated to have the week off.....it feels like heaven...stress free going at my own pace....the only deadlines are my deadlines, seeing people i love and..... well living...actually living my own life woop woop......I am letting go of the fact i had to work extra hours to actually take my annual leave! and i am letting go of the anger i felt in response to actions taken by another and am grateful for my supervision...as the week comes to a close i can simply breathe it all away and stay present... I started a journal spread inspired by b.o.d. n b.o.m. and my nvc reflections on chapter 7 about empathy and holding that presence for others.........i have a short poem to make part of the spread....as i 'love' and 'appreciate' that presence that i think was described in chapter 7 and notice i do it less n less in these harried agenda ridden days ...i felt a little sad acknowledging that....but a wave of joy and relief pulsed through me as my awareness was drawn toward it again and i felt better and ive been 'observing' 'noticing' and 'reflecting'.... have some more painting n layering to do .....but here she is for starters x
Tuesday, 23 July 2013
Tuesday, 16 July 2013
I am sat with in the sunshine finishing off my journal page and starting another.....i reflected on my NVC learning this morning standing back from a request situation that perhaps became a demand ....and so had some consequences to it....but still achieved something beautiful for the parties involved, i believe! I had been absorbing the reality that sometimes it isnt possible for a utopian nvc approach to be used especially if a specific outcome is required! but k found myself acknowledging how nvc framework enables you to unpick this gently and understand that in this complex day to day life of interacting with others we cannot truly know which experiences might be informing how a request, or any communication is being percieved.
Friday, 12 July 2013
.....Had a good un pick of my thoughts about 'where love resides'...thought about 'material things' nope no real love there.....thought about people and my unbridled empathy almost too much love there! then thought about myself mmmm how warm and contented i can and do feel sometimes and how much i love that feeling ....how simple but profound an experience it is and how grateful i feel and how alive i feel...and as i sat at peace in my garden with the sunlight pouring down into me it dawned on me yep love resides here in this moment and in me ...... and all was well x
Tuesday, 9 July 2013
....i have filled this page with thought around intention.....beautiful thoughts and sleeping have been a feature of my week.....today i need to remind myself of that as it 'wicked wednesday' and i am up early after not as much sleep as id hoped but hey monday night i had plenty....im choosing to let go of an issue im "not that happy' about but am torn between raising it for some clarification and just letting go of the confusion,suspicion and initial upset as it kind of worked out ok although did cause 2 of us some stress and a very busy day...alongside some serendipity,calmness in a little chaos and well hey not a bad day at all really..some stress is a 'given' . I could worry that it is the fear of the drama i might start by asking that is stopping me but on this occassion my mature head says it really isnt worth it unless it happens again..... and today there is always potential for drama....so i will fit in my walk around the block , be compassionate toward myself to get some head space and choose how i respond from a grounded and centred place ..thankyou x
Friday, 5 July 2013
Going over making requests in chapter 6 again after practicing this for the last couple of weeks and so able to understand things more......with some colourful feelings and not always pleasant situations to reflect on.....I came up with a breakthrough need in relation to work and plan to journal and unpick it alongside setting myself some intention to make this happen for myself ..... as i am keen to effect a little evolution in myself.. but am fully aware I cannot change anyone else.We had a good ole laugh the other day at work boy it was soooo nice.....seeing people happy sharing a bit of mutual acceptance and girlie humour ...it felt good thankyou lovelies
Today i travel with mum to see my neice and sister.It means soooo much to mum and it has taken sometime to arrange.I love seeing them too. Over the years I have accepted that it isnt possible to have a really close relationship with my sister....it has taken a lot of time and heartache and anxious questioning of myself to try to understand this ....but its fine now i love her very much and i do believe she loves me as well. My neice is a beautiful independant soul.... she turned 21 in March and it is with this in mind that we are driving over to see them today.I have a small family and I am soo grateful for this and the time we get together.....love you both sooo much xxx
Tuesday, 2 July 2013
Sunday, 30 June 2013
Saturday, 29 June 2013
Thursday, 27 June 2013
Had a better few days.......the wonders of acupuncture, being able to breathe between jobs and sleeeep... I slept like a baby last night yaaay... I am days off now and sooo grateful ....been scootin around listening to Jack Savoretti unplugged in the car this week (as well as a little Ladies of the Canyon...thankyou Joni M !).Both my boyz are out and I'm floating around you tube listening to nice vibes aww this is just lovely..good ole you tube xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Sunday, 23 June 2013
.....a wonderfully slow weekend....spent time with mel scootin him around chatting n just being with him soooooo nice mum n son time....i baked to share and attended a restorative womens yoga session which was so soothing n healing thankyou universe i am sooo grateful...the good energy n relaxation is slaying those demons .....i release all thought patterns that are not of use to me ..... and replace them with love xxxxx
practicing torso's n arms........will bring these pages to life with colour on my next days off .....ive not drawn figures for quite a while ...it was nice playing with these....
Friday, 21 June 2013
a quiet moment with a warm milk....n 'trouble sleeping' this is only my second night of not being able to sleep this week n thats good going......tonight the wooshes of adrenaline and anxiety needed a warm milk n a little blogging....ive two accounts of my feelings check in today one check in was full of happiness as id had an inspiring day yesterday.....but today im responsible for saying how i felt at an inappropriate time.....i want to forgive myself as id had no lunch n was harried but happy so a little oblivious until reflecting on it after work....i blurted out something without thought....i am trying to use a little thought scanning n it has helped this week but im wracked with awful negative thoughts n i cannot beat the physiological fight or flight symptoms tonight ......but ive had a lovely evening im soooo convinced this is hormonal as well as stress related! time to read n attempt to drop off again...... come on cazzy just let it go xxx
Wednesday, 19 June 2013
feelings check in intense today....have nice picture in my head of a cloud with initial feelings in of 'fearful,afraid,alarmed and despairing'to big raindrops with 'disaffected,suspicious, alone,sensitive,surprised,relieved,thankful in' with my 'needs' watering can collecting some of the raindrops which had the needs in for reassurance, honesty,emotional safety,understanding\contrubution and community.....thanks to a couple of lovely folks independant actions some of those needs were in part met and i can water the very dry garden of my wee soul a little so the seeds of interdependance might start to bed in... this was real hard today its always a headache of a day and id like to art it out.....journal page prepped ....
Monday, 17 June 2013
Ive been progressing slowly on my NVC journey a 'feelings check in' that I do at least twice a week is enabling me let go of some of those feelings (which if dwelt on can become quite debilitating coupled with the sleepless nights and long days at work...not a good recipe for the ole body n soul). The check ins have enable some real progress in exploring and identifying the unmet needs underlying those strong emotions and next on the agenda is, what I'm calling, some 'momentary thought scanning' its one of my intentions for the next week or so as I start to explore language and perceptions around 'requests' (and percieved demands)....all good stuff alongside revisiting the workbook pages around taking responsibility for my feelings is home work whilst I practice chapter 6....
A Cazzy cocktail of feelings on a working day are overwhelmed, anxious and harried vs calm,comfortable and sensitive! on a day off calm, comfortable, enthusiastic, engaged,creative,productive, and positive are in full flow even if having to deal with difficult stuff! ....its reassuring I can still feel these positive feelings...There is something i need to change about that work environment and I'm working on it... There's been some movement in the right direction but I still feel uncomfortable about how I present myself in order to get the support I need...in seafaring terms I don't like tooting on the emergency whistle but it is a lot better than my past puncture repairs on the ole buoyancy aid and my head can stay above water...I'm still treading water but I can see the shoreline and sometimes just having it in sight is enough....
Wednesday, 15 May 2013
Monday, 13 May 2013
i have been focused around chapter 4 of the nvc language for life for sometime now and identifying feelings and then moving onto needs is journal fodder at its best....here is the beginnjng of my spread inspired by this.Whilst doing this i found myself reflecting on a difference of opinion my mum n i had a long time ago....she lovingly put me up on the pedestal of being totally independant in my late teens ... i think it was her goal to send me out into the world as an 'independant woman' and i can remember then expressing my heart felt need for interdependance and realising that total independance did not make me happy..it has become balanced through the years and i have a beautiful small circle of interdependant relationships in my precious life.. where these interdependant needs are reciprocally met with love ....thankyou you lovely people xxx
Saturday, 4 May 2013
The weekend is here .....phew...so nice i have a host of projects n ideas bounding through my creative mind but have settled on an ecclectic mix of activites focused around 'completion'.. am looking forward to the satisfaction i will get from that...i had a week of non completion at work ...u know u start ur day with the goal of completing on something n then find u r the one having to catch a few of the teams juggling balls as they fall... i dont mind doing that .......but next week i will have to set some boundaries to get those personal deadlines completed ...so to get me in the mood im completing a couple of portraits inspired by kat mcbrides workshops and also adding to my next set of little treasures albums.....yay for a little calm completion ....
Tuesday, 30 April 2013
bod pages for this week around my intention to stop the ole fight and flight response that flooded my working days throughout march n april..... implementing a self care support package ......yoga good nutrition,sleep, lettin stuff go,smilin n laughing and accessing friends n support.